I try to dwell on them, the things I take delight in
Dark memories try to cloud them, I’m not even trying to fight it
I mean, a couple great scenes but it’s not always been groovy
I’ll embrace it all; the good, bad, cheerful and the gloomy
Dreading a twisted life, man, I can't think straight here
A lot on my head, the more I live I know life’s not fair
Combing through the days, nightmares they never play rare
Try to brush them off but with my misery they always concur
I put my life in rhyme, a verse at a time
E dey fi b but chale e dey vex sometimes
But say that be life, small small man dey survive
If I die before I wake, what would it read - my life and times?
I sit, stare and look at life from all the different angles
Chao things dey man for handle
Skeletons in my closet and elephants in the room
Staring back at me and patiently waiting there just to hand Ls
Put your best foot forward but I can’t even find my feet
Everyone sees potential but you’re the only one blind to it
I crawl to keep it moving, I see time fly by me
I don’t want to end up being the one that had it all but blew it
All these heights not attained
Kojo can’t wait for days we’ll laugh at shit we overcame
Boys do some things them no be proud of just to numb the pain
We go talk that one another day



I’ll pat me on the back, won’t wait for you to do it
Can’t expect everyone to believe in what you’re building
I owe it to myself to see my dreams fulfilled
And to all the people cheering and waiting on me to win
Got a lot to live and strive for
Got a few people I’m willing to go the extra mile for
Doing better at linking every now and then in light of
The severed ties fingers can’t count that I’m paying the price for
Still out here trying to find purpose
Can’t just be out living life reckless
I pick myself right up for the next hurdle
They’re shifting the finish line, wanna see us going in circles
My mama’s only child, only one running the relay
Cross the finish line, whatever it takes
Fill up a big ass pension safe
Why I put in work and then some, hoping my dreams sail
Why I get behind the mic for your approval
I lay these tracks and tell all these tales hoping I move y’all
What started as an outlet for my demons’ reproval
Maybe it’ll take your pain away, I know we’ve all been through it all
Yeah. And Eli thinks it’s TMI
But for me and the other guy, it’s therapy for him and I
For those days I get up and ask “why even try?”
It’s the only thing keeping me alive